It feels pretty sad to leave sealedwitha-kiss, knowing I've a lot of memories here. I wont delete it just as yet, prolly just not as actively blogging here as before. I'm done with the new one, but I've yet to really start blogging. Dear readers, in any case if you're interested in knowing where I've moved to, do ask okay. And sorry for the inconvenience caused, no relinks demanded for sure. Takecare, and I'll see you if i decide to just pop by :) You know I love youuuu(L)
I've tried logging in to NYP portal, but results is still not available. Prolly have to wait for another five and a half more hours. Let's just pray for the best ah k. I pretty much hope I dont have to sit for any supp paper, if not wah shitttttt. I dont even want to think about it lahhhhh :( :( :( Today was hilarious, I spent one whole day with Mom, at home then out to Ubi then back at home. We were tidying up the room, when she randomly said, "Ya allah bilek korg, klau kemas agaknya ular pun ada!" hahaha, cute per mak akuuuu ~ but obviously she was exaggerating lah kan. Sayangggg mak! (K)
Have i ever mentioned that I'm leaving this. I've found somewhere better. I made a mistake in the first place, exporting all the posts from yourenotloved here to sealedwitha-kiss. So I decide to pretty much start anew. Go figureeee! Tanak blg sesape url baru, secreeet ^^ cheyyy mcm ader org kesa gitu kan!
I should tuck in, i'm heading to the market tomorrow with Mom! heh heh heh.
Hi, I'm done trying. If you want me in your life, tell me. If not, let's just get on with life. If you ask me till when, all I have for you is " till I find someone worth my time. " 1 year 4 months and till now, I have yet to find someone like that, so why the rush. Bye.
Makan outing with the girls at tekka on friday evening. Yani came down to BR first to meet me, then we waited for the other two at the bustop. Three buses past, there are still not there yet -.- Our stomach alrd hungry like gruk gruk gruk ahhhh. Then they came, bused down to tekka. Got my brows done before heading down to makan. So there was mee goreng, sup kambing, roti john and tosih. Fuhhhh, power ttm. We should have this kind of outing more often, just going out to indulge in food and do what we do best, makaaaan! :D Plan another one soon okay, complete one this time ^^
Went over to Tampines in the evening to meet Junyee, after so so so long. Like finally! walked around the malls first, before settling for dinner at Long John Silver. At last manage to get ljs after so long. :D Continued walking around before heading home at 9.30. Thank you darling for the perfume, you know i love you! (L)
Enough of all the worry and the fear. I shouldn't waste my time, if something is meant to happen it will for sure. I am physically mentally and emotionally tired. Let's just let nature takes it course. My eyes are failing me. I need to get some rest. Been out the whole day despite turning in at 1 and waking up at 6 yesterday. Tell me about it ah, now I know why the eyebags are that size.
the exact reason why i love my bestfriend, no one can lyn my nonsense the way she does! hahahaha.
also, happy nineteenth hakim! :) semoga pnjg umur & dimurahkan rezeki. ^^
I'm left with two more days of attachments and then it'll officially be holidays. I cant wait, cause I have been waiting for this to really go burn some stress and make full use of them to catch up with the ones I've missed. I have plans up my sleeves and i'm totally looking forward to them. From tekka this friday with the girls, kite flying with the girls and/or akim, karaoke with atiqah, catch up sessions with junyee and picnic with the girls plus syed :) Excited mucccch :D
That aside, polyclinic posting have been pretty smooth sailing so far. I like it way way better that hospital posting somehow. And i spotted a cute paramedic today! ahhh, i almost hyperventilatedddd ~ even managed to cuci mata during our lunch time. haha, best part got kaki! sameee taste as farhanah! :D haha, kay prangai miang!
Cause when I gave it time, I thought I've given myself enough. Cause when I gave it time, I thought it'll fade away. Cause when I gave it time, I thought I'll be able to forget my feelings. Cause when I gave it time, I thought I can fight my emotions. Cause when I gave it time, I thought it'll prove me wrong. But till this very point of time, I still feel the same about you.
" I want to be the girl who leave an everlasting impact on someone. I dont want to be the type you'll forget in a week. I want to be hard to forget. I want to have that kind of impact on someone where they know they'll never find anyone else who can take my place. "
And I want to be that girl, who leaves that kind of impact on you.
dont assume if you dont know.
Nuff said. I dont want to mention too much, too afraid of blurting all. Knowing me, i will just type out everything and everything will start flowing out like a running tap. Tangan aku sumpah gatal ttm!
FML _|_
Friday was spent with Yani, Nor, Farah and Syafiq at the IT fair at suntec city. Ended shift way later, head home to get change mandi and all then meet them at City Hall. IT fair was fucking packed like sardines. So not cool k ~ Then left suntec at 9 plus, head off to Marina for dinner. Bought KFC and had dinner outside starbucks area there. Left at about 10.40 and home by midnight.
Saturday was spent with them girls up there. Head down to CGH first early in the morning for the Cardiac Symposium talk. Ended at 12.30, bus down to Tampines to meet the girls. Meet Yani first, then saw Syaf along the way to the toilet, so while waiting, head down to TampOne toilet first. Then left for TMS after rai came. Bumped into Ckg Sahriana, Mdm Farhanah & Mdm Sharifah. Took pictures before leaving off for Tamp at 4 plus. Prata for lunch. Then accompanied Yani to collect her money and then head off to get her iTouch. And then left for home. Totally shagged like crazy! Spent the whole day sleeping like pigggg, haha.
Just hung up the fone after catching up with dear babe. Stay strong okay honey, please call and update me if anything. Hang in there k :)
And now, I'm ultimately worried. Dont ask me how was attachments, cause I swear I will screw you center left right up down. Last lap of polyclinic posting, God please give me strength.
And did I mention, my little toe lost its nail? So, currently its naked like that, ewww ewww ewww.
I might have only known you for less than a year even, but I know that I love you a hell lot, just like one of them babygirls. You've got to keep your chins up high and go through every bit of this rough patch. I've seen you on cloud nine, and I promise I will be right here to pick you up from this hard ground and mend all your broken pieces. I promise I will be here if you need someone to talk and rant to, trust me on that. Cause you know, I feel each and every of your pain just like they're mine. Takecare and stay strong honey. You know I love you. (L)
Remember when you told me this, "If you love a guy, set him free. If he comes back, he's yours. If he doesn't he never was." ?
I want you to know this, " Just because someone doesnt love you the way you want them to, doesnt mean they don't love you with everything they've got."
For the smses: Alyani Raihanah Efaa Jannah Kakak A'an Kamini Fathin Jill Irene Rachel Azhar Eeecha Syiqah Jeni Muhammad Akim Faan AtiqahMQ Neena Michele Wanny Din
For the facebook wishes: Abg Farhan Noora Faddd Asmah Riya Alyani Farahliyana Natasha Kakak Hakim Syafeqah Edna Calvin Yanijulie Hazel Rasyiqah Amirul Elydia Syed Sulaiman KakFizah Jonathan Akim Dan Rachelle Syafiq SyafiqahRosli Idra Jianmin AtiqahMQ Karin Rusydi Fateyn Aishah Shaun Iskandar KakEzan Jeni Cindy Merhan Qaniah Fazlynnisya Saifuddin FangYing JillBF Shidah Jen KakSyaheeda Huiying Guowei Jingquan Zunairah Busu
For the blog post and the tag: Alyani Fathin Jeni Faanaa
I'll take this oppurtunity to thank each and every one of you for making my 18th a blast! :) Everything was totally beyond my expectations, from the wishes to the gifts to the celebration. Thank you so much everyone! Special thanks to my dear girls ♥ Alyani Atiqah Dian Raihanah for spending your sunday with me to celebrate my eighteenth. Thank you Alyani for the make up, for the dress, for the bag, for the surprise and for being the bestest best friend anyone can ever ask for. Thank you Atiqah for providing us with good camera to take good pikchas, for the bag, for the surprise and for breaking my heart every minute you can. Thank you Raihanah for the bag, for the surprise and for the "yay kite buat salbiah nangis!" Thank you Dian for the bangles and the hairband, for the surprise and also for staying much longer than you actually can.Thank you so much girls, no words i say can describe how thankful i am at this point of time to have you girls around. I am infact really thankful to God for giving me such fantastic friends I can call my guardian angels. Thank you for every cent you spent, for every energy you've used up, for every drop of sweat your perspire, for making me tear out tears of joy and for everything you gave to make today as successful as it is. Thank you times infinity! I love you girls a hell lot and you know I will never trade you girls for the world. Thank you once again :) Also not forgetting thank you Apiz and Nasir for your presence :) Not forgetting, thank you Kakak for getting me the Neckermann's slippers. I sungguh love it many many! Thank you, you know I love you (L)
And I'm loving all the gifts I got. From the Neckermann's slippers from kakak, the bag from Alyani Atiqah Raihanah, the bangles and hairband from Dian. Fuhhhh, thanks eh korg :)
And did I mention the strawberry shortcake cake from the girls? Heh, envy me for today :) Strawberry ftw!
Love you people truckloads. Muah, xoxo.
TGIF:)
So believe it or not, its alrd friday. Actually saturday to be exact. Time check: 1.42am. One week of attachments down, two more to go and after than will prolly be rotting at home all night and all day. But that is the best damn thing! (Y) I've been seeing boyfriend every single day, and without fail we always have something to comment about, something to complain about, something to laugh about and something to make fun of. Attachments is made heaven with her presence :) heh, you know i love you right. ^^
On a lighter note, i'm pretty excited about meeting the girls on friday. Not because of turning older, more like because of what we will do that day. I'm absolutely glad i'm spending my eighteenth with the girls. :D
Have you ever wondered if you will have someone to grow old with? Cause i swear, looking at those patients having their other half around even though they're not physically healthy and strong anymore make me feel a tinch fearful. Cause like you know, compared to the guys back then, them now totally cannot make it. And i wonder what happen to all the good guys?
Word of the day: KBBiah (L)
and did i mention the nail of my little toe, the one on the right came off. and i mean the whole entire toe. and it bled the other day. wah freaking jialat :(
Attachments is so screwed in every way possible. I hate it so much, yes that strong of a word used. Confirm from today, my face kena marked alrd lah! All thanks to youuuuu. Ah shit this suck big time. Afternoon shift tomorrow, confirm boring like shit. I dont like _|_
No news for the day, why so silentzzzzz? :(ON A LIGHTER NOTE, THE'S A GAME B/W SPORE AND JORDAN NOW. SHALL PROLLY CATCH IT BEFORE I HEAD TO BED. PROLLY CAN MAKE ME FEE5 A TINCH BETTER.
Stop complaining about sleeping so little and waking up so early. Some never get to sleep and others never wake up.
I'm listing all that I want, but for sure, I'm not mean to demand everything to be in my hands in one weeks time.
That's pretty much all I have in mind now, apart from things you can't buy for me, like another half, to spend the day with my girls and most importantly, my happiness. Honestly realistically speaking, I am not looking forward to turning older. Too many things to hold and bear in mind, too many responsibilities, too many things I've yet to discover and too many mistakes I've commited and is committing. That aside, I shall just let nature takes its ourse.
Tell them I was happy. And my heart is broken.
Simple and nice getaway with my girls today. Initial plan was to meet up at 2, but landed at p.ris at 3 only. All thanks to the semuuut who had to pass away while we were on the way there, till got traffic jam! haha, okay sorry raihanah! :) pecahhh record like that 40 mins late, blame yaniiii ~ As usual, waited for Yani to get down to BR before heading down to p.ris and the bus took forevar. That's the why!
Had lunch at KFC, then off to Fairprice to get snacks :) Joke of the day: Cepat cepat, belok kiri! Naik lift! Hahaha, you girls know i know lah kan! Then took bus down to Downtown to get drinks where we bumped into Ali and Sufyan. This part skip ah nnty Yani kembang only! :D Then walked to PRP and settled down in the middle of nowhere.
Stories come flowing in only at 6 plus after we shifted from the huge field. Apiz came over to join us at about 7 plus. Left for home at 9. And home after Yani hop on bus back to TPY. Back at almost 10.
" Cause your strongest and only enemy is yourself. What i can see now is, kau terlalu ikutkan perasaan. Fight those feelings. All you can do now is fight with your emotions. " - Bff, Yani.
School's out, scream and shout!
So, the long awaited day. Last paper was today, and i think i did fairly okay for it. Let's just hope results will be the way I expect it to be. I want to just clear all modules and not repeat any. Insya'allah, Amin :) Left exam hall at 10.15 when it was supposed to end at 11. Heh, standard! Sape mauuu layan kan. Left off with Kamini and Syiqah.
And attachments will start on Mon, aint exactly looking forward to it in any case. I'm just happy that I'll be seeing boyfriend everyday minus the weekends for the whole entire three weeks, until i think she can get sick of my face alrd! Haha :P So, to the rest of my babes who'll prolly have attachments on the second half of the holidays, all the best kay babes. I'll miss seeing you girls for sure, and see you in year two! :) Fuhhhh, kakak kakak year two or whatttt? ♥ Efa Irene Jeni Jill Kamini Rachel Syiqah Tracy ♥
On a lighter note, I'm meeting BFFs tomorrow. And we're hitting the beach :) I cant wait!
Tak guna mengharap org tegur tiap kali buat salah. Mcm org slalu kater, sendiri mau ingat lah. Lagikpun, sekali dua sanggup lah jugak nak tegur. Dah banyak kali, dah mcm cakap tak guna tembak tak kena lah pulak kan. Lu pikirlah sendiri gang :)
Deep in my heart I’m concealing things that I’m longing to say. Scared to confess what I’m feeling - frightened you’ll slip away. — Evita
I should be studying, but i think i deserve this short break. Hah, self proclaimed break that is. Biology and Psychology paper's over. Pretty average, especially for Bio. I got too distracted by my own reflection, I could barely even concentrate on the paper. Okay, i know wtf. But seriously, its damn disturbing cause i keep on looking at it instead of focusing on the paper. And Bio MCQ almost killed me, 70 god damn it. Like never ending like that. I loved the psych paper, fuhhh ~ Especially the SAQ, power gedegak :) And, I'm left with childbearing and after that it'll be attachments. Speaking of which, I have boyfriend in the same shift as me, yay :) Same polyclinic also, double yay! :D
Okay, i got to get going. Time to hit them books! :)
Dengan tak sengaja, kau membuatku terumbang ambing di angkasa.
Happy eighteenth Akim :) Semoga panjang umur & dimurahkan rezeki. May you be blessed with lots of happiness, bashes and surprises on this special day of yours! I'll pray for the best for you in the long run, may success comes your way often. And may you be in the pink of health always :) Have fun and enjoy your dayyyy pakcik :)
Biology paper in a few hours time. I swear I can feel all the butterflies flying in my stomach. Grr, wish me luck people. I cant screw the papers up. :) And I'll prolly be in a short hiatus till thursday where the last paper is. So, miss me okay huns. xoxo.
To those having the majors, all the best to all of us :)
Another study date with Yani as planned since saturday. Babe came over to meet me at my void deck first, where we settled down for a short while trying to convince someone to join us. Left off for Tekka where we feeling feeling superstar cause whenevar we walk, the people there would turn and look. Had sup kambing with french loaf :) Fuhhh, superb ah the sup. Menusukkk ke kalbuuu ~ Then, went off to get my brows done before taking bus down to Airport. Sumpah study feeling all gone to dont know where, we attempted to study so many times, but keep on resorting to camwhoring instead. And that results in the many many photos, all in FB :) Ats came to join us at about 7 plus. And she potong stim lah, just when we both dah semangat nak study. So, we took a break had dinner and then stories came strolling in one by one :) Left off at about 9 plus, top the day off with another round of camwhoring in the toilet :) Then left off with Yani. Journey back from airport was funny and hilarious, from mat mat gatal main lambai lambai, to stupid shop not open, to just for laughs. Then dropped of at my house and as usual waited for Yani to hop on the bus back to TPY before heading home.
And here's the picha of the day.
Abeh klau member feeling feeling nak maintain vogue tapi sup panas mendidih, camne? That's the result. Haha!
Hit Rachel's today for CNY visiting. And travelling to the other part of the world, is so alien. Haha, pioneer mind you! Was supposed to meet at 12 to get something for her family. But, eventually reach slightly later. Kamini and Jeni was still later thou. Got her chocs and off we were. And I swear Rachel's family totally fed us well. From KFCs to Choc Fondue to Tidbits. I went home feeling totally fat. :D Sucha waste Irene and Efa wasnt around. Caught Bring It On: All or Nothing and played a game of bingo. Head off at 5.
I feel butterflies flying in my stomach. What's up siaaaa? -___-
— The Prodigy
Yani: Kat ne ? And that is always the question that never fails to make my day! :) meet up with my BFF at about six on Friday. Last minute plan on a study date. Initial plan was to hit Bedok to withdraw and change money for my Dad but last minute cancel. So, I went to meet Yani instead. Head down to bedok first before taking bus down to Airport. Had lunch cum dinner over at Macs where a hell lot of funny and retarded things happen all thanks to this crazy girl. From disturbing the waiter from Mc Cafe, to that particular waiter who pyseh, to muke pecah but step jambuuu ppl and lastly to screaming into the laptop while webcaming with Ats. Freaking hilarious like mad ahhh. After studying and all, packed up and left off for home. Home at 11.15.
Meet up with the girls on Saturday morning for our massive burn fats session. Initial plan was to meet up at 7.30 but, we only started jogging at near to 9. Like always, all janji melayuuu. Yani came first follow by Ats then Dian. And we head of to Resv Park to mit Rai. Started with warm ups and jogging. So, completed one round of the resv and head off to have breakfast. amek kau, satu satu radak like no tomorrow. So, pretty much defeits our purpose of jogging. Haha! The girls came over, to get changed. Rai and Dian head straight for work while Yani Ats and I left for badminton. Ended and wrap up the day at about 1.30pm.
Dinner with the family at ECP lagoon. Initial plan was to head down to Changi, but last minute change of plan. So, ECP it was. But i swear the service there is horibble, with a capital H. But, a good place to cuci mate thou ~ Haha :P Sit by the lagoon and watch people wakeboard. Off for home by 11pm and was home by midnight.
"I just don’t know if I wanna do it anymore - get close to somebody so they can leave again." - One Tree Hill
Burn fats session with Babygirls tomorrow morning :) I shall hit the hays or else doubt I'll wake up. Proper update soon k :)
finally, a complete meet up with my girls on monday. ica buiding first to collect passport with Kakak. meet dian and off to 313@somerset. left after walking around f21 and met rai and apiz at bugis. the girls shopped at bugis street before leaving for tampines to meet ats. had kfc for lunch cum dinner. yani and nasir joined us there. head down to g2000 before going off to tampone open space. dian left shortly after. head off to tampmall open space. had massive heart to heart talks with my girls. and we planned for jogging on saturday. i got a feeling it will happen unlike the previous time with yani! hahahs :) home at seven thirty.
meet up with eecha on tuesday. head down to tampines to hunt for something for her boyf for their upcoming anniversary. zomgush, tell me about it :) this marks the third time i'm tagging along with a girlfriend to find something for their respective half. baheeek! :D first yani then kamini and then her. cool tak cool ~ home at seven.
member skrg busy dgn prac oi ~ dont play play :) hahas. initial plan was to meet up with that boy above after school. cause his lessons was at SSDC and we ended at pretty much the same time. mengamukkk kejap msg tak reply call tak angkat. then he called me when he was done. check check member got training. haha! his " sorry " in the mintak simpati voice totally didnt make up for it initially. gerammm jap. but, next time it shall be. :)
i look downright ugly right there. but who cares, cause the spotlight is on youuuu! exactly a year ago. look at how much we've changed :D
So, this one's for the boy right up thereee, Happy 18th Birthday Muhd Farhan Nirwan :) Member dah legal siuuul. Haha, semoga panjang umur & dimurahkan rezeki. And yes, I'll pray that success will come your way often and may you always be in the pink of health! Of course, all the best for your class 2B ^^ i'll come claim my free rides kay. Hahaha!
Another inpromtu meetup with Bff yesterday evening. Head down to Expo first to collect my top from Salbiah. And hell yeah, I fucking love the topppp :) Super satisfied with it :D Then, took bus down to Tampines was with Mom and my sisters. Yani texted me while i was otw to Tamp. So, told Mom about the last minute plan. Green light and off I was to meet Yani at Resv area :) Sent Nasir off, bused home to get cash and off we were to Rasa Rasa for lunch/dinner. Bused back to Resv Park to slack till 10 plus. And as usual, heart to heart talks about a hell lot of stuff. You know I know eh yani ^^ And while we were otw down to the bustop to get home, we saw a bloody mad bitch running after a woman. Hahaha, due due penakut nak mampus, jalan fast game gi bustop. Haha! Lucky shit, the dog didnt saw us. Klauuu tak, nasib ah. And we saw the damn dog again while we were waiting for bus. So, we came up with a funny but efficient way of running away from it. Sumpah kekek to the max siaaa! And, our plan to hit resv for jogging this morning got screwed upside down by who else! Haha, member paitauuu tak bgn. So, next week it shall be :) And for now, thank you babe for yesterday. I swear I had a good time, laughing mcm org nak giler. All thanks to kauuu. Loveee youuu deep deep (L)
{♥} s a l b i a h h h
eighteen. 0703. single and very happy (Y) & i have all i need to be as good as always. & most importantly, i dont live to please you.
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